Unappreciated

It’s all in the title, and that’s how I’ve been feeling lately. The actual meaning of the word unappreciated is “not fully understood, recognized, or valued”, and i mean how accurate is that? It’s crazy you know, how much you’re willing to do for people who probably wouldn’t even do half of that for you. You’d cross oceans for them but they wouldn’t even jump a puddle for you. But here’s the thing, not everyone has the same heart as you, I think that’s one of the hardest concepts to grasp, because i mean “treat people how you want to be treated” ?? And that never happens because people often just take it for granted and still treat you like shit.

Don’t get me wrong here, LOVE everyone unconditionally, but just watch out for the people who are only there when you’re doing good, and not through everything you go through. I HATE THIS FEELING AND I WISH I COULD STOP OTHER PEOPLE FROM HURTING JUST AS MUCH AS I WANT IT TO STOP FOR ME. You don’t deserve to be sitting and thinking about why you aren’t good enough for a person, when you’ve clearly given it your everything. It’s this feeling that makes you want to disappear , you look at yourself like you’re worthless, and you feel like a failure in everything you do. BUT THAT’S NOT TRUE, BECAUSE YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR OWN WAY. “You are what you love not who loves you.” Some people may be blind to your perfections and see them as imperfections, but you aren’t here to prove anything to anyone but yourself. And a major key (DJ KHALEEEEEEED) is to love yourself by finding every flaw in yourself and learning to admire it, and accept it as who you are, that way you’ll never let anyone get to you, because f*ck what they think, you’re perfect.

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“Life is too short to worry about stupid things. Have fun. Fall in love. Regret nothing and don’t let people bring you down.” I love this quote a lot, mainly because it’s literally what we should all be doing, living our best lives and not giving a shit about what people think. Honestly i’m so over people talking shit about me or telling me that i’m not good enough, because it’s bullshit and I always try my best. quote people actions

fk u

You

Hey everyone, I guess I’ve been M.I.A. for a while, I wish I hadn’t stopped blogging, it was always good to open up and just let the words flow out of my mind, I hope you enjoy this and appreciate my efforts in reviving this long lost hobby. I’m just going to get straight to the point.
In a way I’ve ensconced myself with the way things are going in my life, and you just have to accept everything that happens, good or bad. Nobody really knows who you are, except you. They say there are 3 faces people have:

First face: you show to the whole world.
Second face: you show to your family and close friends.

Third face: you never show to anyone, it’s the truest reflection of who you really are.

You should spend some time focusing on who you are, who you want to be, and what you want to be. No one else has your back, like you, start loving yourself more, don’t let anyone else make you feel like you aren’t good enough, because you’re always going to be good enough for the right person and you shouldn’t let the things they say affect you. I can say for a fact that trying your best, and never being good enough, is one of the worst feelings ever, and I really hope you don’t ever have to experience that. The thing about people is that most of them are somewhat courteous, but always vaguely aloof. So you just have to be careful, as you don’t know which face you’re going to be facing.

I know I say this a lot, but just be happy! Your mental health is just as important as your physical health, and that’s what most people seem to ignore. Remove the negativity from your life, how many times have you sat down and cried over things that shouldn’t even matter? As humans we tend to overthink, and we’re very sensitive to things people say to us, and I know the road gets tough sometimes, but just pull it in cupcake, it will always get better. Be the change you want to see in the world.

Onto something else, OPINIONS. Okay so this might get a little intense, but just bare with me because I have to let this one out. Let’s say someone supports something, cool I won’t judge or whatever, it’s what they believe in( non-religious related) but let’s just say I don’t believe in that, or agree with them, it doesn’t give them the right to shove their opinion down my throat and force me to agree, or judge me and tell me that they’re right and I’m wrong. They tell you to respect their opinion but they won’t respect yours, isn’t that double standards? Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but Cmon you should be reasonable and mature enough to accept that things are different, you can’t have a completely irrelevant opinion and expect that to just counter anything anyone says to you. Be more open minded, hear what other people have to say, and then fight back for what you believe in. Make love not war Yeah?

More of that

Here’s the thing, it haunts you, it feeds off you, it always reminds you, that nothing is okay. I just can’t figure out why, my mind keeps on doing this, I always think myself into a bad mood. It’s unhealthy, and I feel like it’s killing me. It makes me push people away, and it leaves me alone, to over think, BUT I MEAN THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING SAD RIGHT? The more i try and get my mind off things, the more things i start to think about, lmao. Talking about it hurts, not talking about it, destroys you. I CAN NEVER PUT MY THOUGHTS INTO WORDS AND THAT’S EVEN MORE FRUSTRATING.

You know how some people apologize for like everything, maybe it’s because they feel like everything they do is a burden,  even their existence. You know what sucks, when you don’t know what to do, when you’re supposed to be helping people out, but instead you’re sitting doing fokall everyday. And now that exams are coming up, it’s just more bullshit, i mean wtf does school even teach us? How to memorize 10 chapters in 2 weeks? I just spend hours staring at some stupid text book, that i feel isn’t helping me with anything, and it’s just making me feel more shit, but guess what, we just have to deal with it, because nothing else matters right? NOTHING MATTERS EXCEPT GETTING AN A. Why is it, that our whole future, depends on how well we do in school?!

I’m  just so fed up with everything, and for all of you out there, i hope you all end up doing what you love, and spend your time, being happy, with what you have, and just forget about the stupid little things. It’s so much easier said than done “just forget about it”, it’s never like that, how do you forget about something that constantly haunts you, something that never leaves the back of your mind. We don’t understand how much we affect other people, it’s crazy to think about, just a small hangout, or a meaningful convo, could change that person’s outlook on so many different things. Just find people who are as fucked up as you, and be yourself with them, and don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not good enough, because you are you, and you should be loved for who you are. Don’t ever give up, on the people who gave you a reason to smile at the world, cherish your every moment, for time seems to be running out.

Sadness

Hi, those of you who are reading, i know it’s been a while, i just really miss this. I just lost all the motivation i had, i don’t know why, but i just lose motivation out of everything really quickly. Thing about the blog is that it really helped me, writing out what was on my mind, rather than keeping it all in to haunt me. Something really important, that happens to us all, FEELING LIKE COMPLETE SHIT FOR NO REASON. Maybe it’s just me, but are you ever just lying down on your bed, looking up at the ceiling, then start thinking about everything. Literally just EVERYTHING at one go, and your mind just loses it, you feel like you’ve done nothing useful in your life, and feel like you’ll always just be useless. You just start thinking about everything you’ve done, maybe start regretting, maybe start thinking about different things you could have said or done which would have changed the situation. And you just get so confused and upset with everything. SADNESS, depression for some. It’s sorta like a disease, i mean it just comes and goes, and you can’t really do anything about it, idk. sad

Here’s another really important topic, suicide. I know way too many people who told me, that if there was no punishment for it, they would’ve killed themselves. I find this really sad, because no one deserves to feel like that, no one deserves to hate being alive. You think you’d escape the sadness by just disappearing, but trust me, suicide doesn’t end the pain, it just passes it on to someone else. Think about how much it would affect your friends and family. You might say “oh whatever they won’t care” but they do, and they just suck at showing it. Nothing lasts forever, just stay strong, it will get better soon.

People go through a lot of shit, everyone needs to understand this, making fun of them or judging them for the way they respond to it will never help them. JUST BE PATIENT. Smile more, laugh at lame jokes more often, stop caring so much about how people act. Don’t think about things for too long, do the things you love, with the people you love. Spend your life with who makes you happy, not who you need to impress. Happiness is a choice, so don’t convince yourself that you’re supposed to be sad. Stop worrying so much about your past, and focus on what’s coming. Sometimes you just have to learn to let go of things, which you know aren’t good for you, but you still convince your self that it’s fine and you need it. happier

imperfections

BE YOU.

STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK.

FIND THE PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATE YOU, FOR WHO YOU ARE.

LAZY

So i think i’m like too lazy to do anything in my life rn, i just say “i’ll do it tomorrow” and then like never end up doing it :/. I THINK THE ONLY THING WE’RE GOOD AT NOWADAYS IS WASTING TIME. Time is so valuable and we don’t appreciate that, it’s like the only thing we need rn and it’s the one thing we aren’t taking good care of. If you just sit and analyze the things you do on a daily basis, you’ll realize that you probably waste all the free time you have, then sit and complain about never having enough time to get anything done. We make ourselves believe that it’s okay, and that we’ll always be able to do it another day, but the reality of the situation is that we just deceive ourselves. How exactly are we deceiving ourselves you may ask? Well it starts off by postponing something we’re supposed to be doing, then during that time, we do something else like just watch series or play video games, heck even sleep, but as we get used to the habit of postponing, we lose the value of responsibility. I’m not really sure what i mean by that, but basically what i’m trying to say is that once we convince ourselves that something is okay (when it really isn’t) we tend to continuously do it. CONTROL. That’s all we really need to learn how to do, control ourselves.time_is_running_out_by_aomori-d3gko8t

Social Networks

Probably the number one source of time wasting, I bet most of us can sit on our butts and stare at our phones for hours. I myself, am guilty of this, but i am trying to stop tho. There’s no point in judging someone else and going “omg man you spend too much time on your phone, anti-social much” while you probably do the same thing at home, everyone is addicted to something, and addictions aren’t easy to stop. Just start off by trying to control yourself, and worry about yourself then take others into concern.  face_sucker

Series

Well, SERIES ARE LIKE THE BEST THING EVER. It’s super entertaining and can keep you occupied for days, weeks and even months. I bet we’ve all showed off about how many seasons we finished in like a week or how many episodes a day and all that stuff, i know i have. Again, we just need to control ourselves when it comes to these things, we shouldn’t sit at home and just watch 10 episodes in a row, as fun as it may seem, it isn’t worth wasting all that time. A few episodes, then take a break and go do something useful with your life. series

Sleep

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Everything that i’ve been mentioning is just things that i do and problems i’m facing, i’m not directing it to anyone and mean no offence in any way.

Jealous

Omg why haven’t you updated it’s been like 3456 minutes now (that’s 6 days since the last time i posted), been sorta busy/sick so yeah that happened. (feeling much better now though Alhamdulillah). Anyway, going to be talking in general, on how we tend to get jealous over very stupid things, and hate on others for being different than us. But first, something really deep and meaningful bc i am poet.

(Got some of this from IG, so not all credit goes to me)

“Stars can’t shine without darkness” now if we take the literal meaning, we can see how during the day, when it’s all bright and sunny, the stars which are millions and millions of miles away aren’t very visible, but once dawn creeps upon us (AND WE ALL TURN INTO WEREWOLVES){jk} and the skies turn black(kfc), the pretty little stars become super bright and shiny like lanterns! It’s amazing, subhanAllah how small they may seem to us, but in reality they’re like super duper enormous, some even as big as the sun (I think).  Okay back to the quote, the true meaning behind that is that you can never really shine without having to go through trials and failures, so you shouldn’t give up just because you aren’t shining during the day, for if you wait long enough, you may just end up shining during the night! ~That was some adele rolling in the deep shit right there amirite guys~ stars

Haters

Motivators. Well depends really, if you’re actually doing something with your life, and you’re successful because of that, then anyone who hates on you is probably just jealous. Hating on someone because they’re not your type isn’t right, i know we’ve all done it before, and probably won’t stop, but just keep in mind that everyone has feelings, and that it hurts, because it makes you feel like you’re not good enough. ((I do it too, so like we just need to try and stay open-minded, and accept people)) Do you notice how celebs, as popular as they are, all have lovers/haters. It’s a natural thing obviously to just ‘like’ something or ‘dislike’ something, but some people take it a little too far, for example, if i don’t like your favourite musician, then you can’t just start hating on me and call my taste in music bad just because it’s different. It’s not a fair way to think, as everyone has a different taste. (Again, i do these things and i’m trying to stop)haters

Jealous

No, not the damn Nick Jonas song. Now, what are things that people most commonly get jealous off?

  • A person’s Wealth?
  • A person’s Success?
  • A person’s Love life?
  • A person’s Looks?

There’s much more ofc, but just the basic things, now this also has a lot to do with hating, because jealousy is what usually leads a person to hate on another being. How can stop ourselves from getting jealous? Look at those who are less fortunate than us, the people who have it much tougher than us, people who aren’t as free as us. Basically try to appreciate the things we have, so that we don’t have to look at those who have more than us and that way we can save ourselves from getting “jealous”

Happy

DON’T YOU DARE COME HERE WITH YOUR PHARRELL WILLIAMS SHIT, that song was too annoying for life. Well, happiness is such a wide topic, so i’ll try to speak about whatever it is that i can relate to i guess.

People

Basically, everyone in your life is going to disappoint you at some stage. Deny it as much as you want, but it’s pretty much a fact, so here’s what to do, DON’T RELY ON OTHER PEOPLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. We all find happiness in different things/people, i’m not saying that you can’t find happiness in people, i’m just saying that it’s not going to be permanent. If you don’t expect things, you won’t be disappointed. Remember that some people won’t do as much as you do for them, it doesn’t mean that they don’t love you as much, it’s just nature i guess.

Okay no more negativity, when you find someone who makes you happy, and a person that you can trust, make sure you hold onto them, because not everyone nowadays is worth trusting. WE SHOULD ALL JUST FIND HAPPINESS IN FOOD TBH IT WILL NEVER DISAPPOINT YOU (unless you get food poisoning or something omg). Remember that making other people happy is also an awesome feeling (well for me at least) like putting a smile on someone’s face is the best thing ever, and making people happy is super easy, just be kind and helpful. BEING HAPPY WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND HAVING A GOOD TIME IS THE BEST MAN. Happiness is waking up in the morning with your kitty sleeping on your pillow right next to you<3. happy others

FAKE

Why are people so fake man, like whether it’s on the internet or real life, just stop. People who act differently, to impress others, i understand that you’re probably just trying to fit in and stuff, but if they aren’t going to accept you for who you are then they aren’t worth you time. AND CAN SOME PEOPLE QUIT PUTTING UP FAKE PICS AND SAYING THAT IT’S THEM, like we understand that you don’t get enough attention, but like don’t go that far man.

Feelings

WOOOOO, this topic, will hit you in the feels. Or nah, but WHY DO WE LET OTHER PEOPLE CONTROL OUR EMOTIONS?! Well not literally, but you know what i mean, like we just give someone all our time and attention, and when they don’t do the same, we just get this shitty feeling like we aren’t good enough. Well let me tell you that you don’t need anyone to tell you whether you’re good enough or not, be confident in yourself, make yourself happy by doing the things that you love to do. STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Stop wasting time and just let yourself free, GO WILD GO INSANE IT’S THE BEST THING EVER.chances

Relationships, awesome man enjoy yourself, it’s the best feeling ever loving someone who feels the same way about you, someone who cares about you as much as you care about them, (well relationships like friends and family too) Just be happy! When ever things go wrong, remember that it won’t last forever, everything is temporary so take a chill pill and Let It Go (buzz off frozen).happy day

I just really love to eat all the time, and i just love donuts and cupcakes and blue and kfc and soccer and friends and sleep and video games and photos and everything.

How to be happy (by me):

  • Eat (i would recommend KFC)
  • Sing/Listen to Music
  • Don’t study and then regret it (it’s always fun)
  • Pee with the door open (only when you’re home alone omg)
  • Fart on your sister when she’s sleeping
  • Make other people laugh (by being lame ofc)
  • Don’t care bout what people say
  • Math

Judge

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Okay a serious thing about this generation (don’t get me wrong, i’m part of it too(OR AM I)) is that everyone is way too quick to judge?!fdsxafc. Like we need to seriously stop judging people we don’t personally know, by their appearance/behaviour/actions as we don’t really know the reason behind it all. We’ve got to understand that people do different things at tough times to keep themselves sane, some people use music, some smoke, some sleep, some may eat, some may pray(always the best solution), and some may even just hang out with their friends. I guess it’s just to help escape reality, loosen your mind for a bit, forget about the problems that haunt us day and night. Everyone has their own little problems that they can’t always share with anyone, and it just sucks up all the happiness out of them, which is why as humans, we tend to react to these things in different ways, and you just have to accept that not everyone is the same. Point being, is that you have to think twice before calling anyone something that may hurt their feelings, put yourself in that person’s situation and see how you would react.(That’s almost impossible to do, which is why everything is never as easy as it is said.)judge

Then you get that asshole friend who always pushes everything to the extremes, and never realizes when enough is enough. Love everyone though, it’s a good habit. (Thanks Aarif for helping realize some of these things) Aarif the idiot with a chicken haircut ❤ (i don’t ever listen to my own advice btw)

Trends

Have you realized how fast things come and go nowadays?? Especially trends on the internet, like everybody starts doing something, then when they realize that it’s getting too mainstream they all just start to hate on it, but act as if they never liked/did it in the first place. Annoying, but another thing that’s flying by, is time, like holy shit man i take a nap after school and wake up like 3 days later forgetting what year we’re in, okay no that always happens, but time is really just sprinting by and that is getting really freaky. CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED TO PSY? He made like 1/2 songs, got some billions then disappeared. Oh and Harlem Shake, haha that was pretty fun to do though (done it in school). REMEMBER WHEN MEMES FIRST STARTED?meme_faces_by_nyrow-d4xmo9u

See how quickly these things came by and then just left? Same goes for our lives, we should constantly remember that we’re going to die one day, and that nothing lasts forever, and that we should stop postponing things, because we may never have a chance to actually do them. “We worry about tomorrow like it’s promised” – probably a very wise quote guy.

Swag

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I’m not sure why the mood changes so much in all this haa. I bet everyone spammed swag at some stage(me oh me i did).

This has nothing to do with swag but i wrote it in bold because i can ok(because i overdosed on Hardees and that is sssswagggggggalicious). Fun thing to do, just sit down one day and remember all the good times you’ve lived and all the things you’ve experienced( try to think positive ) Just appreciate it all, and hope for good in the future (InshaAllah we all have a happy ending one day). Just be a person that people will speak good about when you’re gone.

My love

Okay okay, so you’re probably thinking, omg didn’t he already say no love because he lives in Saudi Arabia?! But love isn’t only in male/female relationships🚣(or homo I guess whatever male/male female/female)
So what is the love that I’m speaking about? Not my family/friends/hobbies, MY REAL LOVER, IS MY BABY SNUFFYY💙💙 Well it’s a normal human(or alien)/pet relationship i guess, but i honestly can’t live without him. I’ve got him for about 11 months now, he is around a year old and I love him to bits.

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Like even if you don’t like cats, you just can’t hate snuffy, he is the calmest/coolest cat ever Yoh. I hope he lives a long strong life and stays with me till the end (InshaAllah).

SISTER BLISTER
Best friend/Best sister ever probably yeah, we fight a lot bc she’s really annoying and always asks me to get her food(usually kfc), but she always does the same for me, and we always have each other’s back and I love her for that. Though she may be younger than me, she stresses and acts way more responsible.

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Okay enough with the gayness, remember that she is very annoying and untidy and she needs to get her shit together.

Soccer
We can go on forever about this, but my love for football/soccer is beyond what words can describe.Chelsea is my life.
It’s my escape, whenever I’m playing, I just forget about my problems and issues, forget about the world, and just focus on getting better/having fun.

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It honestly brings people together, and inspires us to work as a team, FOR VICTORY OF THE BATTLE, maybe I’m exaggerating it a bit(it’s not war), but it’s the bessttttt. I just want to be able to go to London one day and watch a live Chelsea game at the Stamford Bridge.

FRIENDS
I love my friends more than anything in the world(I might be saying that for everything, but I really mean it), they’re always there for me, and I’m always there for them, we’re like a family. The usual hangout spot is my house, and I absolutely love that, because they can just come over anytime of the week, hit up a game of FIFA/get some kfc, then call it a day.

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Topic

People have constantly been asking me what i’m going to write about on this blog, and honestly my previous two titles literally explain it all. It’s going to be me sharing my thoughts/what’s on my mind basically.

I’ll try to be entertaining and stuff, like i asked people for feedback and i think the main problem is my grammar, which isn’t something i can fix very easily as i don’t read books, just not into it much. But as far as i’m concerned, i’m not here to impress you with my terrible english *sassy girl with hand up emoji*.

Music? nothing in particular, listen to most genres, i do have a few favourite artists like MGK, EMIN3M, Jaymes Young and a few favourite bands like The Nbhd, The 1975 and Arctic Monkeys. And if you notice, they’re all completely different, but that’s what it’s all about to me, being different, being yourself, in fact, knowing yourself. People need to stop pretending to be people they aren’t, it’s not about following the herd and being mainstream, that’s boring af.

Know yourself. We are who we are, based on the decisions we make on a daily basis. And that’s something we can’t fake. What i’m trying to say here is basically just let yourself go, don’t worry about what other people have to think about you, you can’t satisfy everyone and that’s a fact.

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BE-YOU-TI-FUL, lol cheesy af but it is what it is. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, it’s not all about looks you know.

Stress?

Ok so as a teenager there are things which i should and shouldn’t be stressed about right? So here are the things that i’m not really stressed about(but i should be) :

  • School: i’ll just sit and complain about the workload and stuff, but in reality i’m not concerned much!? I don’t know why or how, it’s just not bothering me, like i’ll think about how i need to study and prepare for tests/exams but i just can’t put myself to work!
  • University: I’m in matric(grade 12) for those of you who don’t know that, and  i basically need to start applying and start getting my essays done and all that crap, but again, i just don’t bother(make duaa for me man inshaAllah ill get this done easily). I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT TO STUDY SMH.
  • Love: IMG_9747.JPG lol i live in saudi arabia

I think the only little thing i sorta stress about is not being good enough? I’m not sure exactly what i mean by this, i think i fit in well where ever i go, and i just enjoy being there for people, agh but everything is awesome ( Alhamdulillah ).